"The Poster boy"

There is a poster that hangs on my bedroom door. When you close the door, it hangs there...and then if you are single like me (or even if your married)...you start to drool. Yes. He is a very hot guy, in his blue jeans, shirtless, sexy body. But then it reads this:

"I don't ask for much in a man. He only has to be tall, rich, funny, sexy, single, strong, good-looking, smart, romantic, charming, warm, sweet, sesitive, clever, athletic, kind, generous, punctural, sincere, and of course he as to be willing to feed me ice cream in bed every night for the rest of my life."

Of course, I have to smile when I look at the poster and laugh after reading the recommendations of a man. You can't help but dream for a man like that...and rarely would you find a man like that and if you do, you better hang on to him with a leash. In these days, its not easy finding a good man to love and who can love you back, unconditionally and always, no matter what.

I guess I can dream...seeing that I've been single all my life. A choice I made since I've been in bad relations and of course my fear is to find someone who is as bad as my dad. Maybe that is one thing I lack my faith and trust in and where the fear seems to take over. I know I need to "snap out of it" when it comes to that. LOL... I do. however, at this time of my life, as much I would love to be in a romantic relationship, I can't. Tim does take alot of attention out of me. I have a very liitle social life-if any. My best friend moved back to Texas so I don't go out as much and when I do, it was with the Gainesville Mom's. I don't think I've dated since the last 80's.

Oh I know... that is sad! It's actually pathetic! So maybe for 2009 I make some changes and take the risk? I just don't know where to start. church? clubs? grocery stores? library? social parties? maybe first what I really need is a REAL makeover. That I know I need. No disbute, no doubt, no argument there.

So...will I ever find my "dream" man? Who will I find along my journey this next year, or will I? Maybe after the "makeover" I should again put my faith and trust in the Guy above and maybe by miracle, he will be standing there...all along he had been waiting for me.